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SUNDAY! haiz..... Tomorrow gotta get back to work again......... Left 2 more days before i quit the business temporarily...... Then i got to do the horrid holiday homework ( alliteration of "H" yeah? ) Legs damn tired now after playing soccer in the morning......... Scored a couple of goals........ Yeah......... But my goalkeeping instincts was still in bed though.... haha..........

Yesterday went out with Adam after getting my pay at the office and playing a couple rounds of pool at Paradix Centre..... Went to find my friend Eugene at Takashimaya where he was working in a bubble-tea shop....... After that we went to catch a movie, Scary Movie 3! Gosh, it was damn hilarious! Was laughing from the beginning to the end! We had pizza after that at PastaMania........ Ate 2 crepes yesterday by the way..... Hehe........

Before we went our separate ways, we sat in front of Plaza Singapura and chit-chat........ I did something that i think was right! I threw away the handphone chain with the Alphabet "W"......... Well, no prizes for guessing what does the "W" represent yeah.... Adam told me it was a good thing to throw it away as it only contains bad memories......... Pretty true......... Someone you love will never make you cry.......... I have never LOVE HER! Just a stupid illusion that blinded me and my senses! Just some wishful thinking on my part, thinking that both of us are similiar in characteristics and thinking, and well, thought that we would have made a great and compatible couple......... Haha......... How foolish of me....... I should never have told her! Haiz...........



天快亮了 你的心呢 他曾经属于我的
我该走了 你的手呢 有没有一点点舍不得
每一件不得不放手的玩具 总算带来过快乐
每一段不得不完结的关系 只是一种选择
如果美好记忆 还算难忘
为什么 还会记得悲伤
*不如这样 我们一直拥抱到天亮
如果关怀是种补偿 还有什么不能原谅
倒不如这样 我们回到拥抱的现场
证明感情总是善良 残忍的是人会成长
来的来了 走的走了 我们还要求什么
你是我的 我是你的 只是一首太温柔的歌
如果美好记忆 还算难忘
为甚么还会记得悲伤

It's BOXING DAY!!! Christmas just Flew Past! Whoosssh! Time indeed flies! One more week and school's gonna reopen..... So sianz........ Tons and tons of homework undone! Gosh..........

Just came back from work today....... Was stationed at AMK........ did my usual 5 books again....... Finished it by 3p.m..... Too bad only brought 5 books out to sell, coz would be able to sell a couple more........ Got an observer today.... She sold 2 booklets.........

Received lotsa christmas gifts this year! Let's see, i got a David Beckham Size 3 Real Madrid soccer ball, a tie, a wallet, 2 disney cups, a Body Shop soap and a coin box...... Not bad yeah? Furthermore, during my company rally at Sentosa on Wednesday, i won in a lucky draw! I have never believed in lucky draws, but guess what, i won a RICE COOKER! My leader won $500 and my female colleague from my team won $1000 and 2 tickets to a holiday in Bali! So shiok! My team was god damn lucky lorh........ Out of 10 prizes to be given away, our team alone won 7 out of 10! The other teams were pretty jealous! Haha........ Stayed at Sentosa till pretty late....... Till 5.30am before a Gardenia uncle driving a lorry gave us a lift to HarbourFront MRT........... Sat at the back with the BREAD! Mountains of bread.................. Had quite a lot of alcohol and beer at Sentosa........... Drank 2 cans of Tiger and Carlsberg, 1 bottle of Blueberry Ice Vodka, I Energy + Vodka Mix, I FCUK Raspberry Vodka and another cherry flavoured Vodka........ Hmmm......... So nice........ i didn't get drunk though.............. Hehe.....................

Yesterday was Christmas.... Woke up at 12pm due to the late night out........ Were telling lotsa ghost stories too......... Scary sia, at a dark spot on the Sentosa Palawan Beach......... Then went off to my company's office at Outram MRT to have a Christmas buffet and X'mas X-change gift programme..........

Tomorrow's the weekends again......... Might be going out with Adam tomorrow to catch a movie......... I think Scary Movie 3 would be a good choice........ See ya............
我想哭 怎么哭 - Loveless Me



想约在一个适合聊天的下午
分开很多年满以为没有包袱
我还打算回顾我们为何结束
还想问你是不是一个人住
当你的笑容给我礼貌的招呼
当我想诉说这些年来的感触
你却点了满桌我最爱的食物
介绍我看一本天文学的书
我想哭 不敢哭 难道这种相处
不像我们梦寐以求的幸福
走下去 这一步 是宽容 还是痛苦
我想哭 怎么哭 完成爱情旅途
谈天说地是最理想的出路
谈音乐 谈时事 不说爱
若无其事 原来是 最狠的报复
当我想坦白我们的乐多于苦
你说水星它没有卫星 好孤独
我才明白时间较分手还 残酷
老朋友了 再没资格不满足

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Haiz...... Weekends gonna be over soon....... How fast.......... School's gonna reopen soon too.......... So Sianz......... Tomorrow still gotta work... Just took the leadership test last thursday......... Think tomorrow gotta give a speech on being a leader.......... There will also be my NCC CLts coming down to be in my team...... Great! Yippee........ get to form a team.... I have even thought of my team name already... It means S.W.A.T. which stands for Sturdiness with Attitude and Teamwork......... Cool right?.............

Yesterday was FUN! Had our KFC gathering at April's house..... Ate lotsa stuff........ Getting fat................. After that stayed overnight at Adam's house ( We did not do anything other than going to the irc channel #sex ) Stayed up till 4am till we dozed off..... Woke up round 8am before leaving to join my friends for soccer........... Wet and Muddy! Yucks! Worse of all, i slipped and fell in the MUD! EEeeeeeeeeeeeee.............

Haiz.......... Yesterday was a little bit drunk and tipsy.......... Face and Eyes were damn red! As if a vampire's one...... from the Twins Effect yeah........ Haiz.... Played truth or dare............ How sad........... When Bryan kept asking me which girl do i like, i couldn't answer and what i got from WeiNi was that she kept looking down at the floor and keeping a solemn and sad face........ Haiz.......... Dunno what to do bout' her anyway.......... When she was asked how many guys is she currently interested in, she said 3! 2 from our school and 1 outsider......... But she mentioned that it is none of us........ How sad...........

Maybe i should just move on and give her up........ Come on, i think it's near impossible that Weini and I are gonna get together anyway........... Life is full of rejections, like my current job......... Like what my manager said, it's all right......... Just move on........ I think i should do that yeah......... Just forget bout' WeiNi lah........ Concentrate on your A-levels! It's more important.......... Another chapter of my life just ended then........ Haiz......... This is bound to happen sooner or later.... i mean giving her up........ She really broke my heart.......... Forget it lah........... Even when i found Bitch for her, she told me that she appreciates it but don't bother to do such things in the future again.......... What does that mean? Hmm......... Forget it............. End of Story bout' WeiNi.......... The sorrow and tears are just fruitless......... She doesn't know ANYTHING! Gotta go...... See ya...........我已经相信有些人我永远不必等


我以为要是唱的用心良苦
你总会对我多点在乎
我以为虽然爱情已成往事
千言万语 说出来可以互相安抚
期待你感动 真实的我们难相处
写词的让我 唱出你要的幸福
谁曾经感动 分手的关头才懂得
离开排行榜更铭心刻骨
#我已经相信有些人我永远不必等
所以我明白在灯火栏珊处 为什么会哭
你不会相信 嫁给我明天有多幸福
只想你明白 我心甘情愿爱爱爱爱到要吐#
那是醉生梦死才能熬成的苦
爱如潮水 我 忘了我是谁 至少还有你哭
我想唱一首歌给我们祝福
唱完了我会一个人住 我愿意试着了解从此以后
拥挤的房间一个人的心 有多孤独
Repeat #
让我断了气铁了心爱的过火 一回头就找到出路
让我成为了无情的k歌之王 麦克风都我征服
想不到你 若无其事的说 这样滥情 何苦
我想来一个吻别作为结束
想不到你只说我不许哭 不该我领悟

It's the WEEKENDS again! Yippee! Took leave today....... My foot seriously needs a good rest after those strenous 5 days of work, pacing up and down near a shopping mall asking and irritating people for donations...... I have learnt how to speak like an Indian ( no racist intentions here ), i mean learning how to speak very fast...... Gosh, got to do street preaching everyday, sometimes will get a little bored after saying the same things again and again and AGAIN! What's worse, some people just ignore you when you're talking to them! As if you don't exist at all! How Rude!? Didn't their parents teach them to face the person who's talking to you? Hmphm...... Never mind, i forgive them because there are much more nicer people out there! Made $60 yesterday and $72 the day before! Whoppee.....

Yesterday went out with Tamara, the German/Chinese girl ( a luohan )..... She's quite nice and pretty, but her flaw is that she's a little impatient and hot-tempered........ Was at Hougang Mall yersterday..... Anyway, something damn coincidental happened...... Mindy, from 03A2, was there at Hougang Mall too! Not only that, she was at Bishan on Wednesday when i was there and when i was at Kovan, Heartland Mall on Thursday, she was there too! Gosh! When i told Adam this, he said maybe Mindy was stalking me! Hahaha....... Damn funny........ Well, doing this job indeed let one see the many funny and weird Singaporeans that one have never seen before in their lives!

One thing my manager taught us was that if a customer say no or rejects you selling a donation ticket to him or her, MOVE on......... This can indeed be applied to our daily lives........ Hmmm...... Should i still wait for WeiNi or should i just move on? I really can't answer this....... Haiz..... My head is still in a twirl..... Torn between 2 options....... Should i wait or should i not? Should i just move on and let nature take its course? If she's not meant to be yours, she never will right? Coz right now my heart is still filled with her only, nothing else........... See, i am closing options myself...... Crazy boy.......

Later still got to go down to Outram Park to get yesterday's pay..... See ya.........

有谁能比我知道 你的温柔像羽毛
秘密躺在我怀抱 只有你能听得到
还有没有人知道 你的微笑像拥抱
多想藏着你的好 只有我看得到
站在屋顶只对风说 不想被左右
本来讨厌下雨的天空 直到听见有人说爱我
坐在电影院的二楼 看人群走过
怎么那一天的我们 都默默的微笑很久
我想我是太过依赖 在挂电话的刚才
坚持学单纯的小孩 静静看守这份爱
知道不能太依赖 怕你会把我宠坏
你的香味一直徘徊 我舍不得离开

Whoa! Made $81 yesterday! Great! Was on the highroller list and was asked to give a small speech on my success.... Yesterday the boss gave us a early christmas bonus, that means every booklet you sell will earn you $13.50 instead of the usual $12 if you managed to sell more than 3 booklets! i sold a whooping 6 at Hougang Mall.....! Didn't know that the people who lived in Hougang are so generous! Is it because i live here ( Hey.... Kenneth! Don't get cocky just because you made $81, okay?! - my conscience ) Boss gave us a dinner treat yesterday night too! It's to congratulate us for our team great consistent performance on the field! Ate steamboat! Hot and steaming! ( No pun intended )

Today made $60 on the field today. Was stationed at Tiong Bahru.... Managed to finish all my 5 booklets by 4.45pm while my buddy only started on his 4th when i was done ( Kenneth...... Enough of your ego, k......... ) Haha........ I even had to help him sell his last 2 tickets and amazingly the first person i approached bought the last 2 tickets from me! (Kenneth........) While i was soliciting donations, a MediaCorp person approached me. She was actually one of my "customer" and at the end of my preach, she actually asked me for my contact! Whoopee!

Haiz........ Have been thinking a lot this past few days........ bout' WeiNi lar, who else?! Is it really impossible between us? Should i still wait for her? Mixed feelings within myself as doubts surfaced whether i love her er not.......... Haiz..........

Made a German friend yesterday........ My colleague at JuiceAsia lor...... Taught me how to speak "Good Morning" in German........ It's pronounced as "Goodton Morgan"..... Sounded weird yeah? But she's pretty hot-tempered...... Better not "re" her......... Good Nitey! Me still searching for the Jay Chou's song "Qing Tian" ringtone....

你说着 我听着 像海浪打着 沙滩烧着
你的忧伤大于快乐 连彩虹都只剩下一种颜色

我听着 你说着 像刀子划的 隐隐痛着
就因为爱没有规则 所以心痛了死了回不去了

但是我存在着 我一直存在着
和你一起的照片仍在我的手机上贴着
爱会永远永远 你说的
离开我的时候 却没舍不得

我真的存在着 我一直存在着
不管是疯的气的我受着我紧紧手握着
傻傻的陪着守着证明你值得
但我会笑着因为一切都值得

Yoz..... Already gotten the job of selling charity tickets........ Every booklet of 25 coupons sold will earn me $12.... On my first day at work i managed to clear all my 5 booklets at Clementi MRT Station! Whoopee! That earned me $60! Oh ya, there's also this very kind granny who bought 5 tickets from me! In fact she bought 5 tickets each from my 2 other team-mates too! ( P.S. 1 ticket costs $2 )...... That cost here $30! That's not all, she even bought each of us a can of soft drink! Oh gosh! How could such a kind granny exist in Singapore?! She also mentioned that she's a Buddhist devotee, and that we should always help people in need of assistance...... Felt so bad that she bought so much from us and yet we are actually not doing charity work but working for our pay...... Haiz.......... Anyway, went back to office and was later summoned to my manager's office..... He wanted tio talk to us and ask us bout our first day at work..... When he heard that i managed to sell all 5 booklets on just my first day, he kept heaping praise on me like "Excellent", " Well Done". I heard he only managed to sell 4 booklets on his 1st day..........

Yesterday was my 2nd day..... This time i got a bad location..... At some ulu pandan place near Redhill and Bukit Merah...... All around me i saw only blocks and more blocks of industrial parks..... All the buildings were big companies such as Ikea and Panasonic.... Went into Panasonic and well, was rejected flatly..... Worse of all, who were my partners? Gosh, 2 girls! And i bet they aren't normal! One of them dressed pretty sexily while the other well, how contrasting, dressed like a GUY! had dyed golden spiked hair! Worse of all, while they were on the bus, they were v.close to each other, hugging each other and say love-nothings to each other! And they did all these in front of me! That's not all, the GIRL put her hands into her own blouse and kept adjusting her BRA! not once, not twice but multiple times! And she kept sniffing me and tried to guess the brand of the perfume that i was wearing! What's she doing?! Seducing me! Nope, no way! I ain't an easy target and i won't succumb to such stuff! My heart is already filled to the brim! Only WeiNi exist in there! Later on, since the location was so bad, we switched to Orchard Road...... Great, i managed to evade from both of them and went to Somerset MRT station to do a one man show over there! My efforts paid off and i managed to clear all 5 booklets again! $60 yeah!

This morning went to find WeiNi..... She lent me her SAT notes to photocopy...... How nice of her........ It was a pretty hilarious affair in the process of getting the notes from her! She didn't want to come down to give me the notes, so she placed the notes inside a plastic bag and using raffia string, she tied it to the handle of the plastic bag and lowered it down from her window to get it to me! Haha........ Looks like a pulley system...... We did the same thing when she wanted her notes back! But i placed something inside. Bitch. I wrote her a note saying that i found Bitch finally.... Saying that Bitch got involved in an accident and she had to undergo an operation, that's why she looked a little different..... Only her body changed........ Her face remained the same........ Later, i received an sms from WeiNi. She said it was very sweet and thankz a lot and that she really appreciate what i have done for her but asked me not to bother doing such things in the future! Gosh, i was so heartbroken at her last sentence! What does she mean by that? That i should not bother her anymore!? Haiz....... I am really at a loss here....... Someone out there! Give me a win-win situation answer please!........................

Haiz..... Went 4 a job interview today..... Don't think i got the job.... They didn't call me..... How sad.... But never mind, got another one, which starts tomorrow..... Selling charity tickets... hope it isn't too hard and tiring.....

Finally i found Bitch! Found her hanging at Mini-Toons.... Bought it at $4.90... Gonna give it to WeiNi.... Bet she misses Bitch a lot.....

Okie.... Gotta go now..... Watching Final Destination 2....... Good Nitey.........